outsourced

the anger at being treated cheaply does not go away easily. mental images of being on the auction block like a slave or a block of meat comes painfully to mind.

don't get me wrong - i am aware that management has a responsibility to all stakeholders present: shareholders, directors, current employees, etc. as such the people on top need wisdom and balanced decisions.

(at least, that is what i hope that they considered, instead of just profits and profits. lets be charitable for now - though it really feels like all they are concerned about are costs and more costs..)

somehow, the way the whole operation was handled felt like it was dealt from a heavy-handed blockhead with no regards for the former values that we claimed to hold to: "respect". the words that stayed strongest in mind are "if you don't accept this deal, you don't have another option".

this is a fallen world after all. while it is a hard reality to accept, it would seem like I have mistrusted the name of a great company, and i'm now joining the ranks of explotted cheap labour.

so the wait ends..

finally. the effects of the merger have been made public. For those who are lucky enough to be ignorant of what a merger is, count yourself lucky.

The thought of my work site being shutdown has always been a possibility. Daunting thought, but really possible. However, the fact of the site being closed is not as insulting as the fact that many of us computer scientists have been sold off to another IT company.

Sheep get auctioned off. Cows get sent to the slaughterhouse. Horses get sent to the knackers. Computer Scientists, regardless of how talented we are, get sold off.

Am i bitter? of course. Though it has been two weeks, the sting of the announcement has not worn off. No matter how good you are, if you are deemed too expensive by the upper management, you are sent packing. It would make sense if we have not contributed to the company, but we have. And our work is in demand by the customers.

I'm desperately trying not to lose my passion for life, but i am failing miserably. This is a very familiar road to depression.

-v for verbose..

am in the midst of another testing phase now (but am not coordinating the whole thing, so its more relaxing)

a tester (lets call him X) wrote this in the comments of a test result:

"although the test case has been executed by Y, he said that he noticed an error message when closing the application.

p.s. the same error message which I saw"


this is what we call "a dangling pointer". They should have never stopped teaching c/c++.

.. harsh day..

you know its a harsh day when you start entering data like this:

its been a while

went through hell and back, i'd say.

the past few weeks felt like that: heavy stress, hard work, tests, and a desperate attempt to get all problems solved and fixed.

It didn't quite work out as well as i like, but I survived another baptism of fire.

I've been feeling rather old recently. Its not just because that I'm 33 years old (that too, of course), but the fact that the younger generation of computer scientists (i wonder if i could even call them that!) are really unaware of old technologies. They don't even know vi or emacs!

Its a matter of time before the name "tandy" or "Atari" is unknown to them. I suspect that most of them do not know what is a CGA or VT-100 terminal..

ah.. time goes on.