Questions and doubts..

Am in a slight blue funk - basically, plagued with questions of "why bother?"

why bother with new year resolutions, creating promises that you try to hold on to, in the hope for a better future which might never be there?

why bother to hone your skills - be it computing, photography, writing or music - to improve, and find that its not required?

why bother to save up for a future which is more intangible than wisps of smoke?

why bother to chase after dreams that are more of a mirage than visions in the desert?

.. I'm not concerned about my job. my needs are simple - i don't need much, and there will always be a job if i choose to take it. I've been through recessions, hard times and tough moments - so the current financial outlook does not worry me.

I am however, in strong disagreement with the outlook for my personal future.

.. of course, you could always say - "you could choose to think positive or think negative". That is very true. I'm the author of the saying that "given the fact that the future is yet unknown, you should spend equal time thinking about the positive as you do the negative." However, I would rather prefer to think of the positive with the support of more encouraging signs rather than to engage in mental weight-lifting and push myself to think positively ("just because the alternative is to think negatively"). That, it seems to me, is self-deceptionary.

why indeed.